When Fear Strikes - Moving the Energy Through You
Fear closed in on me this afternoon in quite the unexpected way. As I entered my safe space, my studio, I immediately noticed a large hornet on the inside of the sliding glass doors. And just like that, I was internally spiraling.
See, what not everyone knows is that I have a deep-rooted phobia of hornets/wasps. An incident in my early 20s sparked open the wound, but the connection of the phobia runs much deeper than that. It spans lifetimes, timelines and generational trauma. It symbolizes and connects to my spiritual gifts as well as spiritual wounds.
Most likely the same hornet that came after me 25 years ago.
Most importantly, it represents my spirit animal. Yes, my spirit animal is my phobia, the thing I am most afraid of. The Hornet.
I wear a large brass necklace with an engraved image of a hornet on it often. People remark about how unique it looks (it does look pretty cool) but for me, it represents my power, my fire, my courage, the struggles I have overcome and all that I am still working through.
When I go into battle (demonic clearing) my hornet guide leads the way. When I am in uncomfortable situations or exploring the shadows, my hornet guide is by my side. Some say hornet, some say wasp, for me it is quite the same. For me, as terrified as I feel when encountering this creature in real life, in the astral I feel safe and protected.
The situation is quite fascinating for me. So much symbolism, healing, wisdom and medicine resides there. Some humor, too … of course my spirit animal is my biggest fear.
Sometimes before big life changes, spiritual initiations or another Dark Night of the Soul I encounter the hornet everywhere, in the oddest places at the oddest moment, over and over again. This phenomenon gets my attention every time.
So this afternoon when I stumbled upon the hornet in my studio, I froze. Despite much healing work I have been practicing around this issue (I have actually made a lot of progress!) I still felt overwhelmed and pulled from my sense of safety.
Not long after the threat was removed, I noticed my body was racing and the back of my neck was very tight. Fight or Flight had taken over and was holding on with a fierce grasp. The discomfort began to overwhelm me.
My Higher Self showed me what I needed to do. I needed to dance. You know how I share about the way I dance with crystals? Well, this time I was guided to take things to another level. I grabbed my tap shoes, a dance CD and my Jet Crystal then climbed on top of my tap dance board. I pounded it out until much of the fear and anxiety began to slowly unravel. I breathed into it and moved my arms around, stomping loud and furiously until I began to feel much better.
My beloved tap shoes … shout out to Jeanne's Dance Studio in Throop!
As I was dancing, in the doorway appeared a Trickster spirit. Green hair, leering red smile and white face, nearly as tall as the top of the door frame. Black and white striped legs and a white long overcoat. My fear and anxiety served as an opportunity for it to pop in and hang around. The being also reminded me how not all is always as it seems.
Once finished, I sat with the Jet Crystal and some Caribbean Blue Calcite, allowing myself to receive the grounding and soothing energies. In trance, the Trickster being was quickly removed through a portal with the help of AA Michael, AA Uriel and my grandmother, which I then sealed.
Caribbean Blue Calcite and Jet Crystals.
My Higher Self and I had a profound conversation, short and to the point. More energy was expelled through some tears. And while I still feel a little jittery and amped up, my state of being is drastically different than it was when the hornet first appeared.
When you are feeling scared or anxious, notice your intuition. Lean into what feels good as a means to move the energy through you. Perhaps dancing (grab a crystal!) or moving and swaying your arms and body gently. Stretching, screaming, crying. Anything to support the movement and bring you back down to a more grounded space. I also find sometimes a heating pad on my back helps my body ease into comfort and calm down. Notice what happens within you and around you. Pay attention to any signs of messages from your spirit team.
Affirm, “I AM SAFE.”
Afterwards, take a moment to connect with yourself and observe how you are feeling.
We may not be able to control when these intense situations arise, but we can take back our power to the best of our ability when it comes to how we approach the aftermath. Be gentle with yourself, allow yourself the space to let it all out and know that there is no shame in being scared. Give yourself grace as you move through each hurdle. The fear is temporary - you will always come out to the other side.
Channeled Messages:
Channeled message from Hornet
“Appearances can be deceiving. When the fear comes in, stop and pause. Ask yourself, “why am I scared? What can this teach me?” Perhaps you underutilize your discernment in the wake of fear and the unknown. Take a pause and a breath before moving forward. Is this situation really harmful to me or am I letting old patterns overcome me? Bring me home, to the heart of your courage, where you find stability and joy. Let go of fear and invite in your biggest challenges to overcome. Stay and play a while in the places you least expected to. The shadows are your friend.”
Channeled message from Jet stone
Rather than give me a direct quote to share, Jet showed me to work with this stone for releasing stuck fear energy in the neck and the throat chakra. I was shown gentle head movements, swaying and turning the head back and forth, allowing yourself to yawn continually and let go of old energy and tension. Jet suggested pairing this stone with Clear Quartz to amplify the power of this healing.
Reflection prompt
How can I move fear out of my body when I am anxious and scared? What reminds me that I am safe? When do I feel the most at ease?
Dawn Marino is an Ethereal Medium & Channeler, Dark Night of the Soul Guide, Certified Crystal Energy Healer, Crystal Messenger, Trance Healer, Intuitive Tarot Reader, Healing Artist and Professional Writer. She connects to spirit guides, higher selves, angelic, elemental and cosmic beings. Dawn has published two books, the “Tarot Journal for Beginners” and the “Complete Guide to Tarot.” She also has written about her journey in the recently published anthology, “Lessons Between the Lines.” Dawn supports people feeling disconnected from their Higher Self, feeling stuck and lost on their spiritual journey. She works with people to help them through the Dark Night, working with them to reclaim their independence and unlock their potential. Dawn also helps beginner mediums on their path to mediumship. You can work with Dawn remotely over Zoom or in-person at Now and Zen Wellness in Throop, PA.
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