Living Her Best Life - Moving Beyond Mediumship Doubts
Being a medium my whole life, there were long stretches of time where I ignored my gift, denied it or simply just wasn’t in the mental space to engage. When I reached a point where dimming my light became non-negotiable, I knew I had to begin accepting all that I exist as.
The problem? Even though I knew of my mediumship, the idea of accepting it began to fill me with doubts. A bit of “imposter syndrome,” if you will. Am I really doing this? Maybe I am just crazy? Am I making this up?
(Yes, I am really a medium. No, I am not crazy. No, I am not just making things up).
In reality, of course I was not faking it or crazy. But much of reality is not always open when it comes to people like me. I began to panic. What if I lost friends if I spoke my truth? What if people laughed at me? What if they no longer took me seriously?
(Well, all of the above happened, but it all worked out for the best in the end).
So, how did I move past my doubts when I began to accept my mediumship?
With the help of an unexpected spirit.
One average afternoon I was sitting at my vanity table, looking in the mirror as I methodically wrapped strands of my hair around a hot curling iron. A former hairstylist, I find the process soothing and slowly I began to zone out and get out of my mind.
And that is when she slipped in. As I slid the iron down a section of my hair, I could perceive next to me the mother of a childhood friend. She instantly began talking to me in a loud, jovial manner. Her laugh, hearty and bold, brought me right back to the days of growing up in the old neighborhood.
This woman I used to know watched me and chatted as I moved through my hair, section by section. She told me that she was having such a good time and spoke of how happy she was. The spirit of my friend’s mother explained how most days she visits with her own mother who is also in spirit. They have standing tea and coffee dates together to catch up.
She laughed, “Oh yeah, I am living my best life!” and I could feel her excitement and joy. She wore a white long blouse that looked like it came from the 80’s and pale blue denim pants. She had matching small white earrings and while not one for much makeup she wore just a splash of a pinkish rose color on her lips “for the occasion” of speaking with me.
She said how it was long overdue (in fact, soon after this meeting I came upon my Uncle Bobby in spirit waiting for me on a bench, asking me, “what took you so long?”) and she was so excited to be able to converse with me.
My friend’s mother wanted her child to know that she is okay, but also understood that my friend is just not ready for this kind of message. Having her words delivered to me helped her feel content that she was connecting to the living, although I would say she seems to be “living” way more than most of us here on earth.
Once this lovely and lively spirit was done talking, and my curling iron was set back down on the side of the vanity table, I sat there staring in the mirror at myself.
“Did that just happen?” I wondered. But I knew that it happened. And she popped back in to confirm that, yes, it absolutely just happened.
In that moment I became filled with a surge of genuine excitement. I could feel that my path was unfolding and this conversation carried a significant weight of confirmation. My doubts were lifting and my confidence began to spark back up. Yes, I do this. This is who I am.
Also, my hair looked extra fabulous that day.
Remember who you are. The next time you begin to doubt yourself, your gifts, your power, your mediumship - talk to a ghost.
Dawn Marino is an Ethereal Medium & Channeler, Dark Night of the Soul Guide, Certified Crystal Energy Healer, Crystal Messenger, Trance Healer, Intuitive Tarot Reader, Healing Artist and Professional Writer. She connects to spirit guides, higher selves, angelic, elemental and cosmic beings. Dawn has published two books, the “Tarot Journal for Beginners” and the “Complete Guide to Tarot.” She also has written about her journey in the recently published anthology, “Lessons Between the Lines.” Dawn supports people feeling disconnected from their Higher Self, feeling stuck and lost on their spiritual journey. She works with people to help them through the Dark Night, working with them to reclaim their independence and unlock their potential. Dawn also helps beginner mediums on their path to mediumship. You can work with Dawn remotely over Zoom or in-person at Now and Zen Wellness in Throop, PA.
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